I think if you look hard enough, anything and everything around you could be considered art. Even the things that are considered "ugly" is art. It's in the eye of the beholder so if you are open enough to see it, then it is there. For those who don't see it, just need to open up their hearts and minds and soon their eyes will follow. Everything around us is art but so are we, we are living in it, we are moving pieces of art, filled with flaws, which also makes us all beautiful pieces of art in unique ways.

I read Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer a couple of years ago for the first time and the book blew me away. It's not really that easy to explain how but it did. This was the first book by Foer that I have read but after this book I was determined to read his other books. This book was incredible, I couldn't put it down, I just wanted to find out more of the character and the story but at the same time I didn't want to get to the back cover because I didn't want it to be over. The book was sad, interesting, and at times confusing, but this book was like no other book I have ever read in my entire life. Although I haven't really mentioned much about what the book was about, I definitely recommend it to everyone who hasn't read it. It's unbelievable how this little boy copes with losing his dad in 9/11 and how incredibly intelligent he is for his age... it's amazing. That's all I am going to give away about the book. Amazing book, one of my favorites of all time!

Quite honestly, I'm the kind of person who doesn't really like to be touched. I have quite a big personal bubble and I don't really like being invading it, especially people I don't know. This is for a couple of reasons, one being for security purposes, you don't want strange people touching you, what if they end up attacking you or something. I mean there are a lot of creeps out there. And second being in part paranoia. I have no problems admitting that I am paranoid about people touching me, I'm a germophobe, so people touching you, especially when you don't know what kind of germs they're carrying or what their hygiene is like, I mean even with the people you do know, are you certain that they wash their hands after they are done using the restroom? So if you're not even sure with the people you know, how can you be so trusting with strangers, these are people you don't even know! When I say that I'm paranoid, I don't mean that I'm paranoid to the extreme or anything. Sometimes it's not that big of a deal to touch because I carry hand sanitizer, but if I'm not carrying it then I begin to think about it all day or until I finally get to a place where I can wash my hands. 

Sleepy, Confused, Hurting

I am a Christian and so therefore it's a given that I believe in God. I can't really explain it but I do. Everytime I am at church I get teary-eyed, I am not quite sure how to explain it but it feels different than when I'm not inside the church. The negative emotions felt are left at the door and I feel almost as though a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I am comforted. I feel as though everything that I am worried about will be ok and that I don't need to be worry about it as much as I do. It's hard to explain but it's a feeling that I get, that lets me know that God is there for me when I need him to be. 

I'm not sure I believe in loving one person for the rest of your life (spouse), I don't know if that exists. I believe that if you do love somebody you will tolerate them through all their annoying little habits or whatnot, however, I don't know if that lasts. I feel as though at one point or another you can love them but you might not be able to be with them for the rest of your life. I believe that people need breaks from each other to be reminded of the love they have for the other person, it's like that saying "you don't really know what you have until you lose them", except that I don't think that you necessarily have to lose them forever, but that you need a break so that you have the chance to really miss them and be reminded of the all the qualities you love about that person. 

The longest relationship I've ever been in is the one that I am in right now, it will be two years come March. Other than that the longest relationships I've been in are the ones with my family - my entire life.

I think the hardest thing you can change about a person is their stubborness and their pride. That along with values are hard to change. People in general, I believe, can't really change, you can put on a mask on for the world but sooner or later the real you will resurface. I think the closest thing people can get to is to calm themselves down a little but other than that... I don't know...

What I would tell myself would be to let the little things go, don't worry about everything so much, because everything will work out fine, even if it wasn't what I had planned. I would tell myself that things have a way of working out ok and that God has a plan and although I should take control of my life, I shouldn't worry about every little detail, life should be lived and I should be happy living life, not driven crazy. Let the past stay in the past, don't rehash it. And I would tell myself to forgive people for what they've done to me in the past, and if I can't forgive them just yet, don't worry about it but don't hold a grudge. There is such a thing as karma and what goes around comes around, it will come back and bite them in the butts, so I shouldn't worry too much. Focus on my life and focus on making it the best life I could ever live it. 

I have recently started reading 'Sophie's World' once again. I have, several times, started this book, however, never got around to finishing it and by the time I want to pick it up from where I left off, I have forgotten what I have read so I had to start from the beginning. This happens over and over. I am determined to finally finish this book this summer. And looking forward to it. It really is an interesting read, so far!

I am quite used to change actually. My dad works for a non profit organization under the United Nations so our family has always been on the move being transferred here and there every couple of years. Airplanes have become almost like a home to me. The constant change has helped shape the person that I am today. Because I am so used to change, I now cannot be in a place for more than 2 or 3 years because it's just natural for me to now feel as though I have to move. What I would tell somebody who is having issues with change in their life is to just stop fighting against it, change is going to happen no matter what. It really is easier to just go with the flow, embrace change because you never know, something wonderful could come out of it! :)

Sometimes it's nice to be alone... especially if you've been spending so much time with people. Sometimes you just want to be alone, you want time to just unwind and just relax. Sometimes you need that alone time, to be alone with your thoughts. I enjoy the time that I have alone, although at times it can get lonely and I just want to be surrounded by people again. I think to keep myself sane, I need that time alone but at the same time I need that time where I'm surrounded by people. 

I don't remember the last time I really felt at peace, I'm always feeling as though I'm stuck in a rut or worrying about something. Peace is something I constantly strive for, yet... I never actually seem to reach it. I'm still waiting for that day where I can finally have that "sigh of relief", still waiting.

Girls are always going to feel as though they're not good enough, that their daddies are always going to deep down want a son and they could never be what their dad wants. And all they want from their dad is love, they want to be loved, nothing else matters. 

My mind is not a safe place to be in. It comes up with all sorts of things on its own and twists reality into a really complicated and tangled web, so much that I get myself into trouble whenever I let my mind wander off, which it does alot, uncontrollably. My mind is definitely not a safe place to be in, I'm constantly confused and quite unhappy most of the time that I just sit and think. I don't know... I don't trust my mind... and I certainly don't believe in trusting your heart.